All my life I've sat behind the screen of a computer, never giving living a chance.
"Hey- You going to the game tonight?" Quickly.. Excuse.. "No.. I need to take care of my grandpa." "Oh.."
"Hey Kami! Wanna hang out this weekend??" Do I really want to hang with her... I can't stand her. (No one on dA (; ) "I can't, I'm going out of town. Sorry."
And what the hell am I doing?
Grades 7-9 : Maple Story.
Grades 9-12 : World of Warcraft, Neopets.
WORLD OF WARCRAFT IS NOT SOME DRUG i'M ADDICTED TO. iT DOESN'T STEAL MY SOUL OR.. TURN ME.. WHATEVER. It's entertainment when I feel like I have nothing.. Because it's something. I have something. . .
So, years from now when I look back on "the best years of my life"..
What do I have to look to? Killing Onyxia 25 man on WoW? Getting my Zakum Helmet? Drawing.. A krawk.. that got frozen..
One thing came out of the internet- for me. Multiple personalities.
IRL - Funny/Perverted/Emo Kami, Kami who doesn't care about school. Online - Sexual/Shy/Strong Kami.. Who's a lot cooler..
I have soul searching to do.
I've gotten all the best gear on every game.. It's time to get some gear in real life. Take.. CARE of myself.. for once.
If you read this.. Approach with extreme care. I feel as if the life i've known is.. crumbling.
&To my friends in real life.. I get jealous when you make new friends- because it's something I don't do. I don't branch out and meet people, so I feel i'll be left behind.
I'm sorry, I truly love and appreciate every one of you.
To my friends online; Sorry I've treated you poorly. Sorry I'm not always there for you like a friend should be.. Sorry I'm not a friend. Sorry I push all your buttons until you want to hate me then turn it around like it's your fault.. I'm a bitch. Please, forgive me.
Each and every one of you helped me at sometime, and I thank you for that.
To my lover; You out of all people have seen me for who I truly am. You've seen me laughing like a llama stuck in a vacuum cleaner while watching old people falling. (I'm horrible.) But, you've seen my green with envy and strike out at you.. Because I'm afraid of losing the only person who's seen every side of me..
I love you, never forget that.. Thank you for loving me.
FINALLY; Picture / video messaging for the iPhone. ./rejoice
As for life? It's lame. 8 More months of school, 9 till my birthday, 10 till august. You know, the cool stuffs.
I think I'm.. going to try and do commissions? I don't know if anyone would buy.. Lol. Let me know if you're interested, I kinda.. really need money. ;c